Jeffrey Bahr


My Life Fails to Pass Before My Eyes

I'm naked on a folding chair. She's sipping Sleepytime, wings folded,
bright dial hovering behind her head, enough to light
the tablet on her lap. "Where were we? Nebraska from the back
of an Impala, green moon in the window tint, a gooseberry airborne,
the mouth of the Mekong, pink tongues of barnacles in a Basque bar."

"See what I mean?" she says shaking a feather loose, flipping
a page of her memo pad. I try again: Peacocks on a tiled roof,
all the hens hidden. A big wooden mallet, crabs piled up on newspapers
like red evening purses. A cottonmouth, a raised rake. She rolls
her eyes and points at my scars. Singapore? Lisbon? So many places

have holes in their coins. Again: A guy in Baltimore with a Movado,
thin and black-faced with a dot for midnight. The Joyce Chen cleaver
beneath the box springs. Imagine. Before I wheeled my son
from the bright room. After the lover in Hamburg, the friend
who shipped grease-guns to Argentina. It's no use

telling her I've lost the sequence of things. She won't let me in
without Names and Dates. My children are missing. The dog
wants out. They leave together - I wash up her cup and climb back
into bed. Maybe I'll try the Bay Bridge next, let gravity find order
in events as I rush to the long blue deadline.



The Errancy

And so we hacked a large bowl in the forest
floor. We used my father's trenching tool to pile
the clay along the perimeter, and weighted
a tablecloth with rocks at one end and pulled

it over us and waited in the mud. Eventually,
the sounds of the Beltway faded. Random naps,
the smell of our young bodies, and then the burning
of the Bible someone brought: mainly the middle parts

no one had read, catching the kindling, eight palms
warmed by the light. We told all the jokes
we knew, burned Look and Life, argued
for a while over how to pronounce Miscellany.

Eating the last of wrapped sandwiches, grins
when the waxed paper flashed into black silk, someone
said his mom made all the decisions. Someone
said his dad kept a Luger and a sock full of bullets. Someone

said we were his last chance. The fire was pitiful,
someone snapped branches and the forest-savvy
of us laughed. We all slept a while and someone
said we should go home, and we all did.




Jeffery Bahr lives in Colorado and is the Managing Editor of The Alsop Review. His work has appeared in various publications including The Alaska Quarterly Review, Barrow Street, Indiana Review, Many Mountains Moving, Beacon Street Review and Birmingham Poetry Review.